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| Wednesday, July 12th, 2006 | | 12:25 pm |
I think I will let this journal die now. Current Mood:  relieved | | Friday, June 30th, 2006 | | 9:09 pm |
Media Media Me dium edia. ams,.......
I'm am soooooo caffeinated lol so...where to start? I've become obsessed with over-preparing for college. But the funny thing is that I only do what I like to - lots of language, reading writing, no math or science. I really should work on the math since I quit after Precalc and won't remember much. I think maybe I'll just take some easy classes to get the math credits out of the way. So far this summer I'm through Joy Luck Club, The Sorrows of Young Werther, then The Double and then Brave New World and now I'm onto Catch 22. It's hard to read... scratch that, it seems hard fo me to want to read, and I don't know why. Maybe I'll drop it and pick up As I Lay Dying again. After that Portrait of a Young Artist and Dubliners, and I remember which ones I was really excited about so nevermind The Denver Public Library is Heaven. I picked up some Baudelaire in French and I'm beginning to do translations. Maybe I'll post something. It's good practice for me, but when you can read the French and compare it to the English you realize that the translation kills something. Good God. I had my normal-sized Espresso at 10:00 am today, but today I had been going several days without caffeine and had it on an empty stomach, and it's 3:20 and I still haven't come down. I've started some Bartok and Satie and a Chopin Noctourne (sorry if that's spelled wrong lol) on piano, and had been working on a Prokofiev before I realized that the entire composition is nauseatingly childish. I wonder what I'd think of his other stuff. I've been thinking that photography might be a better medium for me than painting and so I want still a camera-for-artsy-purposes. I need to save my money. That darned Damien Rice ticket cost me a large portion of this week's paycheck - $60!!! Not to mention I'm scheduled to work during the concert and still need to find out if I can change that. Oh, the irony... they're non-refundable. I might need to check out "I Art" and "Ed Wood" if I can find them. Haven't heard much about either of them but they could be supremely awesome. The Sea is too creepy to enjoy, don't see it. Un Homme et une Femme - A Man and a Woman - was that the name? - there was something really special about it. Yeah. Hannah and Allison liked Wit. cool. Oh and I'm so excited for Pirates of the Caribbean 2 and Lady in the Water. I've probably already complained to everybody about this, but they're the first movies out I've wanted to see since Pride and Prejudice. Current Mood: so, so high | | Sunday, June 18th, 2006 | | 10:09 am |
The live recording of Rice's "All Dressed Up" is so beautiful that I feel compelled to turn it off. It is a more accurate depiction of a broken heart than I've seen in real life; the emotion is so honest, so raw, so naked and free of the fuzzy confusion of conscious thought... this is sacred to me. I cannot think, I cannot breathe, and I cannot cry but only feel my eyes pucker. I could never break a heart again. ( How_I_see_it ) Current Mood: overwhelmed | | Wednesday, June 14th, 2006 | | 5:47 pm |
( Weird_stuff )Does anyone else get kooky on the night of full moons? I need to investigate this. Current Mood: disturbed | | Tuesday, June 13th, 2006 | | 11:12 pm |
Brice left early this morning (we delayed one day :). I already miss him quite badly. It was during this trip that I began to see just how deep his patience, generosity, and kindness run. He is so good to me. The only other relationship I've had last this long died with time; and while I was expecting something similar to happen, Brice and I seem to get stronger and happier as we go on. I love you and I miss you! Current Mood:  lonely.....very lonelyCurrent Music: Everybody's Gotta Learn Sometime - Beck | | Friday, June 2nd, 2006 | | 11:17 pm |
| | Wednesday, May 31st, 2006 | | 11:09 pm |
I don't care who y'are. Everyone who doesn't plan on reading all of The Joy Luck Club must at least pick it up to read "The Voice from the Wall." (short story) I just about peed my pants. Seriously, though... I got dizzy. Current Mood: AMAZED! amazedamazedamdezadzmaCurrent Music: Kronos Quartet - Requiem for Adam | | Monday, May 29th, 2006 | | 10:39 pm |
Tell six things about yourself and then tag six others. 1) I don't like loud noises. Natural ones like thunder are awesome, but beside that I'm very un-noise-...likey. 2) I have this freckle, dark brown, and just big enough to be noticed, smack-dab on the middle of my back. It's really cute. It's probably my favorite body part lol. 3) I hope I can be one tenth of my Grandma. I am so amazed at what she has accomplished and the way she continues to live in her 80's. 4) Multiple crushes can seriously tear a girl up. 5) I care about God and my relationship with Him more than I think shows. And it almost worries me that maybe it should be showing in my life more. 6) uhhh..err.....I like French classical music. Ben, Manda, Mallory, Kasey, Janny, Raisa. Brice if he wants to. ( ehn. ) Current Mood: discontent | | Thursday, May 25th, 2006 | | 8:07 pm |
| | Tuesday, May 16th, 2006 | | 7:58 pm |
Before you sipped, you’d always look Your yellow gold Cupped in crystal hands Like your own little aquarium, And you forgot to remember me Left somewhere around the nurse sharks... Nowadays as the breeze Drives me forward with me, I never forget to notice The way the sunlight permeates the trees, Like the river through my bathing suit... And the red light before my right turn Will slow to a stop. ----------------------------- If anyone could reassure me that the literal meaning is salvagable they would get an extra slice of Emily-luvvin. Hypothetically. my first class tomorrow is at 1:15, Suckers. Current Mood: good | | Saturday, May 6th, 2006 | | 10:49 am |
*yawn* so nice to have a day in which nothing needs to be done so demandingly... ( An_impersonal_handwriting_analysis )ehn... ( And_Color_quiz )Lalala..... I thought I was loosing interest in poetry/writing because the stuff that used to amuse me is no longer that fascinating...but I think my taste is just maturing. So thas goot. :) ugh, my attempt at remodeling my myspace just died a miserable death. Oh well, not worth the trouble. Did you SEE the fog slip off the mountain's shoulders yesterday evening? Wow...two big thumbs up, Jesus! 8D hahaha Oh, and my graduation party (combined with Ben's and Sarah Anderson's) is going to be on the 21st, a Sunday from 5-8, at the Butterfly Pavilion. It'll be mostly informal, so yeah, and feel free to show up and leave whenever. :) Current Mood: relaxed...with an undercurrent | | Friday, April 21st, 2006 | | 1:32 pm |
long one.
First of all, a widdle riddle: A father and his son are in a car accident. The father dies, and the little boy is seriously hurt. They rush him to the hospital, where he goes into surgery. The surgeon says, "I cannot operate on this boy; he is my son." How is this possible? ( Answer )I couldn't get it... ( and )( oh_and_and ) Current Mood: peesed awff senyorCurrent Music: BLAH, I'm a musician. | | Thursday, April 13th, 2006 | | 6:42 pm |
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*smiles awkwardly beneath the hand on her face* oy. Current Mood:  oy | | Monday, April 3rd, 2006 | | 6:44 pm |
I remember that morning. The outline of the dusty blue mountains etched out by the weary grey haze, like God’s hand telling me not to look The dry brown field admittedly ours. The shadows were still long as you mounted your horse, the one colored milk-chocolate. I was wearing the old dusty blue dress and you took one last look before you took off As your hair waved goodbye I envied your effortless thin figure as you rode away, it was too painful to watch. Current Mood:  curious | | Monday, March 27th, 2006 | | 9:37 pm |
yuck. Everything sucks lately. It hurts to type. I am in such a bad mood. When I think about it now my past week has been super crappy. Looking at what's happened to my friends is crappy (not a big enough word, I know), and then I had lots of my own crap. I didn't get into Oberlin today. I got on a whole defensive tangent about how my standardized test scores are above their average, my teacher recs rocked, and I rather think my essays rocked, which leaves only one possibility: my grades weren't good enough. So maybe I shouldn't have taken such the advanced classes or gone to this good school, and I could've had the extra .5 to your lusted-after 4.0. I dunno. I guess this puts the cap on the fact that I don't get it. I don't get how people use those god damned little planners to get all their stuff remembered, and I don't get how they always seem to know how to do the assignment for 100% when....goodness, I shouldn't say such things. I dunno. I think I'm smart enough, I try to get organized enough, I feel motivated enough, and then I don't get the grades. Whatever. I feel like shit. and I need to sort through the dream I had last night. Current Mood: rejected | | Tuesday, March 14th, 2006 | | 6:49 pm |
| | Sunday, March 5th, 2006 | | 8:30 pm |
Light more graciously uninvited strain ing inside in-the-door's stained glass, tea ly ing unused on the desk, it's guest beg ging dismissal into the kitchen _Red ore tiled sink, white in the in side, _bird on the out side look ing in charming ly Out doors a breathable p a r a d i s e bird on the out side, bird from the in side drin king ___from the golden fountain would rather tea ________________________________ thar she blows. Written about two weeks ago, finished editting (maybe) today. lemme know whatcha think. I wish I'd saved it at different intervals of revision to ask people's opinions on which is overkill/boring/just-right etc. ...but then again, I've already gotten the opinion of the only person who'll really tell me something. I realized I like editting better than beginning poems. I never like what I start with and sometimes it's painful to see what's there before revision. this one began as a way to look busy in chemistry for a couple seconds. and......thas all. Comments are appreciated especially if you have something you like/dislike/anything insightful. ________________________________________ p.s. CRASH WON BEST FILM! :) :) :) Current Mood:  productive.likeacatw/computer. | | Monday, February 20th, 2006 | | 11:15 pm |
( Letter_4 )In other news, lol. I got back a couple hours ago from the big WI trip. I feel wonderful. His parents are great people and I hear they liked me, which is very important to me. His dogs are hilarious little buggers and his cats are fun to have a dialogue with...I'll have some discretion and not divulge my opinion on the bird :). *indistinct muttering* Benjamin Shapira is an amazing performer, conductor, and personal teacher, and I'm glad that they're close. His room is awesomeness and his art is very impressive. Oh, and his smile is more adorable every time I see it. Current Mood: peaceful, and a bit ashamed | | Monday, February 13th, 2006 | | 9:46 pm |
| | Thursday, February 9th, 2006 | | 3:40 pm |
( Third_letter )Wedding tomorrow and tomorrow's tomorrow...ugh. We won't have practiced enough, but eh, gigs=integrity+money. Current Mood:  okayCurrent Music: NIN - Only |
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